Don’t worry. Everybody has issues with weight, I know I do. And you are beautiful no matte what the number on the scales say! About the self harm, that’s ok. Don’t worry or get upset about it. You are still doing so well! 4 months without cutting is amazing and such an achievement for you! Even though you have cut today it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t stop your progress. Just learn from it and learn from the feeling you got from before you cut. When you start feeling like that again try to do something that makes you feel better, whether that be talking to a friend, watching a film or tv programme, listening to music, painting, playing sport. Whatever! Just do anything you need to do to help yourself. It’s common for people who are going through things like these to relapse so you don’t need to feel bad about it. It’s common. And you can get better from this!
Just remember that we are open any time to speak to you. I hope you get better <3